they say that when you know,
you know.
you see with you i do not know,
these mix signals,
like the weather having me dressed
in a summer dress
when it intends to rain.

the first time i met you,
you were wearing a jungle green bomber
that made your shoulders look like a painting Palbo Picasso would drool over,
a master piece of God.
I wondered if ever your heart had raced,
like a Kenyan athlete sprinting through their last lap
to win a medal,
are you always winning?
because my heart is always down on her knees when you speak.
i wondered if you listen to slow music,
if you knew the value of silence amidst grasping for air,
i could not tell the colour of your eyes,
but what is in the dark shall be brought to light,
for i later came to learn that your eyes are the colour brown,
with some wave of blue at the edges,
as if oceans rising to cause a tsunami,
as if warning a girl not to fall inlove with you.
your hands are a collection of stories i enjoy to read,
your smile,
a stranger that only appears when you are angry,
is where rainbows meet waters.

i have learnt to master your heart beat,
my head resting on your chest.
your heart is the music that sings me to sleep
and 2 a.m in your arms is chocolate cereal
after years of cursing on oat meal,
bad for my health but good for my dopamine.
Your company is my first gasp of air
after years of drowning,
a joyful outburst of laughter that could not be contained.

My heart has mastered your name,
i have fallen into the serenity of our deep and sometimes senseless conversations,
you are my muse,
girls like me dont deserve guys like you,
but i am selfish enough to want you.

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19 thoughts to “wanting you // a letter to my crush

  • Collins carter

    Top notch… I like it

    • Cleona Mwangi

      Thank you

  • Muteshi

    Love it ๐Ÿ˜‡

    • Cleona Mwangi

      Beautiful remarks from a beautiful reader . Thank you

  • sarafineArt

    ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜wooow poured all your heart into this… Am sure he would fall in love with you ASAP if he comes across this beautiful letter…

    • Cleona Mwangi

      Maybe he has already fallen in love with me

  • The Kokota

    Wow!! This is a wonderful piece. I just discovered your blog and it’s slowly becoming one of my best. I like this

    • Cleona Mwangi

      Thank you ,and karibu nyumbani because this is home ๐Ÿ˜Š

      • sarafineArt

        A girl can hope ๐Ÿ˜
        Hope never disappoints…

  • Jack

    Every single day, am here, so optimistic to find somthing new, compelling and some times tear drenching story… And yes this is another remarkable one.

    • Cleona Mwangi

      Jack this warmed my heart . Thank you

  • Maureen Muthui

    ๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ˜ขif only I was your crush…I would get such a beautiful letter

    • Cleona Mwangi

      ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ Maureen don’t worry,crushes come and go but friends are forever

  • Agie

    Just the perfect words! For someone trying to express what they feel but short of beautiful words like this.
    Thank you! Because you are reaching out and helping a soul out there. ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’• Favourite place!

    • Cleona Mwangi

      Thank you babe … get back to blogging soon please

  • njoki nyambura

    this I love,,reminds me of faruq,,your hands are blessed.

    • Cleona Mwangi

      Am surprised that you remember Faruq, thank you Njoki

  • Reinhard

    Wow beautiful ,beautiful ,beautiful ๐Ÿ˜„๐Ÿ˜„๐Ÿ˜„

    • Cleona Mwangi

      Thank you


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